a beautiful disaster

Apr 22

forgiveness

How can some people honestly forgive and forget? Expecially in relationships. You can say sorry a hundred times and I’m still going to think that eventually you will fuck up. I might say its forgotten and that I’m over it, but I’m not. What was done will never be forgotten. Our past is what makes us who we are and relationships are built on past shared experiences. It’s not my fault that (he who shall never be mentioned) shared a gross sexual experience with her. WHy should I have to dwell on that for the rest of our relationship? Oh what? You changed? yeah good try. People can’t claim they have changed.

-> I am going to forgive myself for staying with you so long after that but I cannot forgive or forget what happened. sorry.